Knackered mind

Last few months have been nothing if not an emotional torrent, balancing between a torn open heart and a need to go on. My emotions have gotten the better of me, slowing down my performance and, in some cases, completely halting me.

These things, which everyone else on the planet has mastered, are amongst my greatest of fears. I cannot control my life and I can't lead others right.

Concerning Sabarasa, I feel I might be closer to the end than I had surmised...I am slowly becoming unnecessary quite rapidly. I don't know if a work place is purely an idiosyncrasy of an engine or something else akin to a much more familiar social unit...like a family.