Do not pass go...do not colect 200

There isn't much else to write of. I have gone over my life again by speaking to myself about what's changed the last 3 months. Safe to say I do not want to recap 16 or 28 years of my life. I also do not want to recap the last 5 months prior to my employment or graduation...there is nothing to learn for me.

All my knowledge, from engineering to social skills have been variously applied to my time at Sabarasa Inc. in developing videogames. 3 Months that feel like an entire year, but that's good, I grow faster.

Yesterday I tried to reconnect somehow to hi5 and Final Fantasy Online, but there were too many painful memories associated and most were unproductive in my path towards the present. I lost a friend and I lost my temper (and my pride) in both those places. Losing people and yourself is far more transcendental then losing physical objects. But I guess somethings gotta give.

I've learned about developing for the Nintendo DS and I've learned a hell of a lot more about the industry then if I had done it alone. I've learned about others and I've learned about working. I've also learned about new losses and new dangers. I've met extraordinary and talented people. I've opened a multitude of new options in my life.

I wouldn't trade any of the experiences of the last 3 months for anything, especially since it's given me a new purpose...I seldom contemplated suicide now. I will continue to write my ideas on scrap note or whatever. I will continue fighting for my vision of Mexico, even if I have hell to fight. Nothing is more important than making my dreams come true and I have certainly thrown the title on finding that special someone...there is no time. I neither have the energy or the interest to seek out a special someone in these times. God help me, truly.

No regrets, no return. There is nothing I can do to revert or change. The path is set. I have chosen the road to my own death and I have chosen very well. I must continue until I've satisfied the minimum requirements to payback my life...I must complete my chosen dream, my personal destiny.